Not showing up to initial therapy appointment?

Cancel the appointment, call your insurance company, and ask them to refer you to a therapist, or you can ask your doctor to do it. Sounds to me like the lady you talked to had more on her mind than helping other people. This is not to say that counselors are no help, but you need a full and extensive evaluation for your type of anxiety. I was abused by an ex fiance, so I can kind of understand what you are going through, but again, you really should speak to your doctor or your insurance company. Good luck!